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Thursday, January 6th, 2011
11:11 am - Pepsi Refresh Project
These are the ideas I am supporting so far this month:






(You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Sunday, April 25th, 2010
8:15 am - Sign of Life Change?
People on Facebook are posting about last nights Vesago.

The last time I saw Octavio was last week at the library:

He was using the free net access.

I was getting a book for Elysia.

It was the first time I'd seen anyone since the last, now rare, trip to Nocturne.

And I don't feel any pang of having missed anything.

current mood: content

(2 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Tuesday, March 10th, 2009
9:24 am
And I wake up to the news that my grandmother died last night...

All I want to do is curl up in bed for a while...

Instead, I have to work, take Rez to the doctor's, cook dinner, clean, etc, etc, etc...

At least I have my Mom's back-up with getting Lissy from school and doing her homework...

And meds...

current mood: exanimate

(10 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Monday, March 9th, 2009
4:17 pm - Why I Haven't Been Posting
Heater died completely at the end of January...Evacuated house due to fear of it blowing up...Over that weekend while mom was doing laundry, smelled burning again despite heater being off for a few days...Firemen found nothing...Took crew from company investigating why new heater wasn't working to tell us that the hose to the dryer vent is plastic (illegal) and is #1 cause of house fires...Rather than argue about something else, we install aluminum hose.

New heater was being installed...YAY, right?...No...They said new one was factory defective...Was actually too big for house...They get another heater...Come to work on it for 4 hours every day for a week...Valentine's Day they stay from 1 PM to 11 PM...Still not working when they leave...Chase them down street, stop car by standing in front of it, and rant...Realize it doesn't matter and return home hysterical...Mom can't talk me down, so in the most romantic Valentine's Day gesture ever, Bill drives me to Hall-Mercer...Blood pressure 181/94...Therapist talks to me for an hour...Says I have every right to be so frustrated, and that the stress will pass...Whole trip took an hour and a half, which has to be some sort of record.

We finally have heat and a shower(Oh, shower had to be torn apart, due to mold eeking out from under the tub surround), but heater and bathroom still not up to code...Have issues which landlord and repair man say will be done but have not heard from them in over a week...Repairman unexpectedly drops by while I'm at work to make sure heater is still running...Sure...Calls while we're eating dinner and leaves me a message to call him back, says he did not call me, odd...Says he'll be here Saturday to look at the issues in the house...Next day, we get a 10 day eviction notice for non-payment of rent...It also says he posted it on the property, which probably accounts for the visit where he did nothing and the phone call he "didn't make"...His story will be he dropped it off and I called him about it...Thank goodness for time-stamped phone messages...Rent is in escrow until L&I action is done...Thank goodness my Valentine's trip to Hall-Mercer made me get an attorney because I was overwhelmed...Lawyer laughed and said it's illegal...Good...Repair man, who is now identified as property manager, never showed on Saturday.

Saturday was nice...Lissy went to a birthday party down the block, and I went to a baby shower a few doors down...Let Lissy stay out and play longer than usual like I had the night before...Stopped home from the shower to change Rez...Lissy runs up the porch with a boy who is known trouble behind her...He complains she threw his hat in a puddle...I make her apologize, bring her in for bath and bed...I also apologize to him when I go back to the shower, but let him know he can't say he didn't do anything to provoke it...Fini?...No...His mom knocks on my door while I'm at the shower...My mom tells her where I am if she wants to talk to me...Instead, she waits until the next day...Yells at Bill when he steps outside...He says same thing my mom and I both said, "What do you want us to do? Wash it?"...She says something about it being about respect, not the hat...Tries to turn it into a racial thing...I come out and tell her it's not racial, and her kid is constantly harassing the girls on the block...She says the girls knock for him, which isn't true...Especially not my kid, since she's not allowed across the street...I tell her her kid's not all that, and she goes, "He's all that like his momma!"...So I get all ghetto back, throw my jacket open, and shout "I'm skinnier than you, bitch!"...She thought I was gonna fight her...I never left the porch...If she wanted me, she'd have to come at me...She went home and got a broom...Her husband and Bill rushed into the middle of the street and stopped her...The cops came...It was a mess...Over a fucking baseball cap.

Now, my medication isn't helping my anxiety like it was...Actually having pretty bad attacks...So I scheduled an appointment, despite not having insurance...Ugh...

It's pretty ironic how everything and everyone I'm responsible for is what keeps me together, despite all of the stress they come with.

current mood: drained

(7 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Thursday, January 8th, 2009
4:13 pm - I never expected to be "that mom" but...
My kid is an Honor Roll student!

current mood: proud

(1 Pancake | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Thursday, December 25th, 2008
11:21 pm - Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night

This image is my favorite from this Christmas...Elysia: confused, disgusted, angry, with still a little "Dare I dream..." in her eye...She screamed, nearly in tears, "But we don't have a Wii!" and shoved the game box back at Bill who made her happy by saying he would return it to get something for the 360 (which is happily back from RRoD-land)...My flash reset just in time to get the shocked pause that came from the next gift opening...Sadly, it couldn't capture the whisper to a scream of "oh. My. GOSH!"

We'd had it since July...It was the hardest secret to keep, but it was also the best surprise ever.

current mood: indescribable

(4 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Wednesday, November 19th, 2008
11:24 pm - Hot and Cold
Everyone told me to check the damn heater before the winter hit...It always just seemed too warm to do it, and the cold came on so suddenly...The hot water heater went on Saturday...You'd think I would have had the landlord do it while he was here fixing that on Sunday, but I was an idiot. (Also, I was preoccupied with the fact that the XBox finally got the dreaded RRoD.)...Last night, I went to turn the heater on, and the burners came on, but the blower didn't...That's not good when it's forced air heat...The landlord's son came to check it out tonight, but got nowhere...The landlord is coming himself to see it tomorrow...I understand that it's alot of money and the energy tax credits aren't effective for 2008...I understand more that I have an infant and a 6 year old who are now at risk for illness and who I can't bathe even with the new hot water heater in place...GRRRRRRRRRRRRR...

The only thing keeping me from a murderous rampage or a nervous breakdown right now is my belief that we can get through anything as a family.

Bill asked me if I wanted to just go to City Hall and get married today...I'm actually considering it as an option at this point...We're getting married no matter where or when...Stuck together forever no matter what...The how does not matter in the long run.

Talk about love keeping you warm...lol

current mood: cold

(5 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Tuesday, November 11th, 2008
11:32 pm - OOOo oooO OOOo oooO

This is one of my favorite shots from last night. (Full Set)...stellastarr* put on an awesome show!...Hanging out with Jenn and Jeanne was lots of fun, too!

It was just really nice to have a night out to myself...I'd almost forgotten what it was like.

Now, back to my normally scheduled life, which is actually more awesome than it used to be. :)

current mood: bouncy

(2 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Thursday, November 6th, 2008
11:13 am - *bleh*
Stupid PMS...I did not miss you at all...

The hormonal mood swing of doom made me so upset that I could not motivate mself last night...I wanted to do one of two things and since I had no tickets for either, though I probaly could have gotten them no problem for at least one, I sat and cried...I should have just gone to the New Kids show...I kept saying I didn't want to go alone, but I'm sure I would have run into people I know...If Bill and I had gone up to The Ritz for Bruce Campbell, I knew we'd run into people, but I didn't know if anybody would have extra tickets...So, upset and torn, I decided to just do nothing, except sulk and make everyone around me just as miserable until they or I went to sleep.

Not good...Thank goodness that the baby slept through the night and I got to wake up feeling human again...Thank goodness that I have a loving, understanding family who accepts me for the whacko I can be...Thank goodness today is a new day.

(You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Tuesday, November 4th, 2008
11:13 pm - WHAT A WEEK!!!

Phillies win. (riot)

Giant pinata. (riot)

Obama win. (riot yet to happen)

I love this bat-shit crazy city in this bat-shit crazy country.



current mood: indescribable

(You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Thursday, October 30th, 2008
12:55 pm - Duuuuuuuuuuuuude...
As if this weekend couldn't get any better:



Kinda reminds me of that guy on the lightpost who was getting bottles thrown at him last night, only more yummy and less bloody...YAY!

(1 Pancake | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Wednesday, October 29th, 2008
10:26 pm - WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
I was 8 months old the last time the Phillies won the World Series...My mother has always told me that she brought me to Broad Street...She never told me, until I was talking about taking the kids down tonight, that it was far too crazy and we left after maybe 5 minutes...They're in bed now...Bill and I are heading to Broad Street as soon as he gets home...I've been waiting a long time for this!!!!

current mood: ecstatic

(2 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Saturday, October 18th, 2008
10:29 pm - Best. Baby-Care Product. EVAR!!!!

I call it "the snot gun"...It is magic...MAGIC, I say!

When used with "the saline gun", it is the easiest way to handle a stuffy nose...Much less screaming and struggling with these than with the things I had to use when Lissy was a baby!

current mood: excited

(You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

7:52 pm
Rez made the Fox Philly Phillies Phan page!

The link to the pic is not working...Doh! It's in the fan section of PhilliesPhever.com...They used this one: http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3188/2948036945_eb140b585f.jpg

Last time the Phillies went to the World Series, I lived literally a block away from here...It was also the last season I didn't attend a game...Perhaps my geographic location and lack of attendance during the season are good luck...lol!

In other news, I'll be going back to work as of this week...Part-time temporary until I find something permanent...I interviewed at Hahnemann last week and have a phone interview with Pricewaterhouse Coopers this week...The PWC interview is my second huge interview this year...Deloitte Touche Tohmatsu was also huge to me...Hahnemann is in the same vein as PNC: local big interviews...If you could put interviews on your resume, mine would feel much more impressive...It would be nice if one would finally pay off...

current mood: excited

(1 Pancake | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Sunday, October 5th, 2008
11:32 pm - Kids...
Sometimes, you just don't realize how big they've gotten until you look at it like this:

Fall '06

Fall '08

current mood: surprised

(1 Pancake | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Monday, September 29th, 2008
10:50 am - Pee-pee Tee-pees, Boo-boo Bunnies, and Zombies.
Yesterday was quite the day.

We had a visit from my grandfather, his wife, and my cousin in the afternoon...They came bearing the first 2 mentioned items...Then we got ready and went to the Zombie Prom...Bill went despite the fact that it was an Eagles night, so I know he really does love me more than them...He still got to watch the game in the Balcony and tracked the game on his cell when we weren't up there, so we were both really happy...We didn't get all zombified, since the makeup was kind of hard to get off last year...I didn't want to be scaring Lissy's classmates this morning...Though, that would have been extremely amusing!...It was just great to get out for a bit and see other grownups, especially some of the grownups I miss lots when I can't get out!

Pics are up here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/honneylove/sets/72157607563046172/

current mood: happy

(You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Wednesday, September 24th, 2008
11:15 am - Duuuuuuuuuuude...
I get Lissy situated in her new school, come home, check my email, and find out that Rez's crib has been recalled.

It never ends...

current mood: busy

(1 Pancake | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Monday, September 22nd, 2008
10:23 am - More WTF...
Today was the beginning of P.A.C.K. (Pack Assorted Colors for Kids) Week...Cute idea...I make sure Lissy's lunches are healthy anyway, but they got to wear colors to match the days...Today is Purple Day...Lissy went to school dressed in head to toe purple...Adorable, right?...Not so much when you look around the yard and no one else is wearing so much as a stitch of purple...It's like the parents didn't get the memo...Worse yet, I think they got it and didn't care...I can't wrap my head around it...No matter how much I see, or how much I experience in this school...How can parents just not care?...She's the only kid in her class who goes in with a packed lunch, too...Her school is a "Universal Feeding" school, so lunches are free and they even give them breakfast...I always make sure she has something healthy in case she doesn't like what they're having...Are parents really that far gone that they can't make sure their kids are healthy themselves?...Do they really trust what has already proven to me to be a broken establishment more than they trust themselves?...Why the hell don't these people care???? And how is it that I come off looking like June fucking Cleaver????

Almost every mother on my block calls me nuts for breastfeeding...The other kids think the fact that I won't just let Lissy play in the middle of the street is odd...Someone said to me the other day, "You sit and do her homework with her???"...I get funny looks on Recycle Day because I have so much more recycling than trash...When Lissy was having 2-8 friends over every day during the summer, people asked me how I could stand it...I refuse to get a bouncer or swing for Reznor because I'd rather hold him when he's not sitting in his car seat, and people still ask me if I want one...I put a bookcase in Lissy's room and one of the kids asked if it meant she was finally getting a tv in her room. When I said no, it means she's getting books in her room, they looked at me like I was that witch in Hansel & Gretel...I talked to a couple of other moms on Back to School Night about the fact that the school doesn't have a Home and School Association and they looked at me like I was Madame Defarge...I mean, seriously, since when does being a good, involved parent make people think you're nuts???

Regardless of how anyone feels about what I do, I'm going to keep making what I feel are common-sense, good choices for my kids...Even if I can't make a difference in what other people do now, I'll hopefully be giving my kids the tools to make a difference in the future.

I don't mean that in a high-horse way, because I'm sure that's how some would take it...I'm just expressing how I feel right now from honest observation of this situation...I am well aware that I'm far more idealistic than most people let themselves be...I just don't think it's wrong to be so idealistic, especially when it comes to my kids.

current mood: productive

(6 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Saturday, September 13th, 2008
12:22 pm - WTF...
has happened to schools???

I didn't want to send Lissy to this school to begin with, due to it's reputation. I immediately put in for a transfer, because I didn't feel the school would fit her well at all. As if to punctuate my feelings, she was stabbed in the leg with a plastic fork last Friday. Monday, I went in with her and was told that nothing could be done other than to have her desk moved. The kid she was seated next to next must have thought, "Hey, he got away with it and she got in trouble." This kid started punching and kicking her on Tuesday. I went in on Wednesday and asked the teacher to watch him, and she caught him. That same day, I got a letter from the principal that she was going to turn down my transfer request. He stole and broke Lissy's crayons on Wednesday, and I found them in his desk on Thursday. These were the chunky Crayolas, not cheap and hard to break. Told me the kid has a bit of an anger issue. I also witnessed the kid who stabbed her with the fork being taken from class for harassing other kids. I called the School District on multiple lines, giving oral statements each time. They told me to write it all up and hand it to the principal. The principal did not seem to take the issues seriously, so I called the region. The next day, I was essentially kicked out of Lissy's school by the principal, because it's "against school policy" for me to be in her classroom with out a background check, even though the teacher wanted me there. I basically said to her, "If I don't send her in because she's being harassed, I go to jail for 'neglect'. If I escort her into class because she's being harassed, I'm going to jail for trespassing. So you're telling me I go to jail for caring about my kid either way?" I went home and called the region again. Fortunately, my words to the secretary the day before (Basically: "It could be worse...She may be coming home bruised, but at least she's coming home alive.") stuck. Last night, I got a call from the regional superintendent. He told me that he would be able to help me with the transfer next week.

I just can't imagine what would have happened if I hadn't fought so hard and injected myself so much. The worst part is knowing that there are other kids who are going to be the victims now and that they may have parents who don't care as much.

Also, I can't believe our state doesn't have a better system for Child Abuse History Background Checks. It's ridiculous that I can get my Criminal Background Check immediately online, but I have to fill out a form with redundant information and wait weeks for the DPW to clear me just to go into my own child's classroom.

It was an annoying week, but I'm glad it's finally working out and will be over soon. I already looked into home schooling, just in case we run into problems after the transfer. I hope we don't have to take that step, so that she can enjoy a normal education with other kids.

current mood: determined

(2 Pancakes | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

Sunday, September 7th, 2008
3:46 pm - Baby's First Game Day

current mood: happy

(1 Pancake | You give me yours, I'll give you mine)

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